I’m scared okay. I’m scared of you saying goodbye. I’m scared that the moment you say it’s over, I’ll never see you again. I don’t want you to forget me, cause I’ll never forget you. I don’t want you to walk away from all we’ve had. Those pointless conversations, the three hour phone calls, I can’t lose all this. You may have said it was over, but it’ll never be over to me. No matter how many times I’ve pissed you off, people fight, it’s a part of life..we always learn to love those the most. Nothing’s perfect. The feelings are there, they always have been, admitting it or not. How could you throw this all away so easily? How could this not mean anything to you? After all these years I’ve sat and waited for you. After the amount of times you repeatedly told me that we possibly had a chance. I kept hope, I believed that you would one day fall for me the way I’ve fallen for you. I knew that if I didn’t give up that I could have you mine. I knew it in my heart deep down we belonged together. Why those repeated times did you tell me you cared if you would just drop me like this? Why did you pay me no attention? Age was never the matter. If you didn’t like me, you should have told me, I just wanted the truth. The time is finally here where you said I could have you and you got mad cause I talked to people about you? People were bound to know. How could you just forget all this like it never happened and say bye? I can’t give up my dreams, no matter how hard I try.
Talking to you as a friend is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Not calling you babe, or putting hearts, or flirting or telling you I love you, is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do.
